Did I ever tell you about the angel incarnate I met at the hospital?

Anthony Hordern, 03:53
No, and don’t lie to me

You, 03:54
Well, I can't say with absolute authority that he was an angel incarnate, but .. it sure seemed that way.
I'll tell you about him.

You, 03:56
First, I knew an Indigo that I used to talk online to a lot many years ago. We had fun. Years later he remarked that we were "the best cerebral mechanics this side of the rainbow." He told me once that at age 18, he was given nearly total knowledge of the universe. One thing he told me was that angels can incarnate. An angel leaves part of its energy with a women, and when she gets pregnant, the child embodies that energy - it's an angel. They usually figure out they're angels by the age of 18. And if they spend enough lives as a human, they start to adopt human vices and eventually fall from grace.
So, many years later, at the mental hospital, I saw this guy who had one side of his head shaved, and one side was a full head of hair, very wavy and big. He somehow looked like a programmer to me. I gathered to balls to go up to him and ask him if he was a programmer. I guess I wanted to make a friend. I don't remember what he said, but I know he wasn't a programmer.
He was sitting down at the time.
His hair was like blondish or light brown, probably varied in color, i don't remember, this was in 2010
He had a way of covering his true self when interacting with normies.
For example, at one point someone asked him why his hair was that way, and he said he did it on a dare. I knew he was lying.
He knew a lot of things about what I was thinking, at various times, that he "shouldn't have been able to know."
For example,
I was in like this psychotic, elevated but maybe chaotic or overly complicated space, or maybe just too "knowing," where i felt like if i revealed myself too much, just subtly, it would damage the minds of the others in the room,
but I had this superstition(?) that if I drank grape juice, that would help me to conceal myself.
I was very smooth about concealing myself, walking and moving without revealing anything.

Anthony Hordern, 04:02
You’re always very smooth

You, 04:03
But this one time, I couldn't find any grape juice, so i drank something else. Maybe I could have looked harder, I don't know.
And he said something, I don't remember what, but it must have been along the lines of, why didn't you drink the grape juice?
Because I responded, "there was no grape juice."
And he said, accusingly, "yes there was." \
I still don't know whether there really was any grape juice on the counter.
I think there were other times, but i can't remember them. But there are other things that more specifically made me think he's an angel..
Like i asked him how he knew stuff, or something. He made these motions with his hands over his head, I don't remember how they went, but they gave me the impression that he communicates with other angels or beings, and he showed me him reducing the separation between him and them until it was zero. The motion involved bringing his hands together in a certain way or something.
When he was leaving because his stay was over,
he was wearing a white sheet that looked like angel wings, at least when he stood up and towered over me as I was sitting down at one point. Maybe he did something with his arms to increase the effect, I don't remember.
He suggested something to me, I don't remember what, and I don't remember what i said, but he suggested something about me doing work. I think maybe the words were, "well, if you don't want to work...". I knew he meant divine work. It was actually an invitation. I don't remember what I said in response, but I remember it was kind of defensive, like justifying myself. And then he said, "You broke it."
One time he was staring straight at me, sitting next to me...
He just sat there for minutes on end, staring straight at me, amazingly perfectly still.
I couldn't believe how still he was.
I asked him why he was staring at me, or how he could be so still or something,
and he said, "Because I love you."
I had picked up rather quickly that his guy could know anything he wanted to, so at one point I asked him what the plot of this book was that I happened to see lying around. It wasn't his, so the chances were slim that he'd read it. It was called Hammer of Eden. Without missing a beat, he said that the book was about correcting your mistake, and then correcting your correction, and then correcting the correction to your correction, etc. or something like that. I don't remember how he worded it.
There was tihs other guy....
He looked kinda funny,
kinda rotund,
and had a ..... simple look to him, I don't know how to describe it. It was like he had the mental or emotional simplicity of a duck. If I remember correctly, he also waddled a bit when he walked, too.
Oh, but first, I remembered one other thing the angel guy read my mind about.
I was wearing these army pants, and I was afraid that they symbolized more authority than I deserved,
and he said something to the same effect to me at some point. I said, "maybe you just put too much importance on symbolism. Like *that* guy," and I pointed to the rotund guy. Then the angel guy was walking away, and behind his back, he traced his fingers in a certain path through the image on the back of his shirt. I couldn't really figure out what he was trying to indicate. The image on his shiprt was something patriotic with an eagle, like an American flag and an eagle. After tracing his finger over the image, he pointed behind his back, with a deliberate motion, toward the rotund guy. The best I could guess was that he was saying the rotund guy was some kind of overarching leader. In retrospect, it may also have meant that the rotund guy followed some virtuous principle, or set of them, wholeheartedly.
So, let me tell you about this rotund guy.
I'm pretty sure he was just a patient at the mental hospital.
The first time i saw this rotund guy, he *commanded* that I stand in the sunlight coming in from the window so he could see me better. I think he wanted me to stand at a certain angle, or in a specific part of the sunlight vs shade, too.
I did it. I was just happy to be involved with something. I was wearing a very bland, desaturated but not quite grey, greenish colored shirt.
He said something negative about me "coming to work" in a color like that.
I said, "I *wish* I were wearing my favorite color."
I normally didn't wear shirts of such negative colors.
He responding by saying something about me being a jackass. I didn't think I was being a jackass, I was just being honest.
There was this one time,
this very pretty girl was in her room, making some sort of noises of distress, I don't remember what, I guess she was probably crying,
and I decided I'd pick up that book I mentioned earlier and bring it to her.
I was just feeling like anything that instantly came to mind for me to do about it would probably help.
And as I'm about to go down the hall to her room, the rotund guy stands in front of me and says, "We have enough light" and something that indicated that if I wanted to bring her the book, I'd have to go through him. He actually did use the words, "You'll have to go through me."
So i didn't do it.
I wasn't really that afraid of defying him if I wanted to, I've never really recognized any authority over myself except inasmuch as they have physical power over me, such as with police officers, and I knew this guy wasn't about to literally beat me up, but I didn't go past him because I figured he must have known what he was talking about.
Another time, he led me to each of the rooms in the ward, opening the doors to show me the insides,
and was asking me which one i wanted to stay in.
One of the rooms, he went into and I didn't follow. I think I backed out of the doorway when he went in, or something.
He asked me something like, "what's wrong, do you not like the energy of the room?",
and i said that I didn't trust him. That was why I didn't enter the room with him.
Anyway, I eventually picked one, and, if I remember correctly, I was soon after that transferred by staff into that room, or if it wasn't that one, it was one close to it. I have no idea how he pulled that off.
And at one point I saw that girl I mentioned in the visitors' room lying on her parent's lap.
She seemed to be releasing a lot of emotion, like it was very healing for her to be there,
and as I walked by the rotund guy soon afterward, I said to him in a low voice, "I'm so happy for her.'
Before he left, he told me that I'm invited back to his hospital (he actually said the words, "my hospital") at any time
I know he wasn't actually staff or the owner of the hospital, because at one point,
I was in a room alone with him, and he commanded that I eat some food that was on the table, and
I didn't feel comfortable eating it on command, and I wasn't hungry,
so i didn't want to eat it, but i wasn't quite sure how to say no. I'm very spineless and avoidant of conflict.
Then one of the staff walked in, and he told the rotund guy to pick something up off the floor, some trash i think, and he did.
As he was picking it up, I took the opportunity to slip out of the room.
I think he had said that if I ate the food it would make me feel better, I don't remember for sure. Yeah, now that I think about it more, I'm pretty sure.
So, that's the guy that the angel guy seemed to indicate had something to do with his patriotic eagle.
Oh, I remembered another thing.
I was in this room where one of the staff took out his guitar and started playing for everyone in the room.
I was kind of disgusted by it, I didn't really appreciate him doing that for all the attention and exaltation and abusing his position to do so, or something like that. That and I was just generally unstable, so it was hard to regulate my emotions.
But i sucked it in.
Eventually, though, I couldn't keep it in any longer, and I vividly imagined myself spewing a stream of vile clear and black substance from my eyes, or my mouth, I don't remember which, to the floor. I directed it at the floor so that i wouldn't sully anyone.
When I eventually came out of the room, the angel guy said to me, "you did a good job in there." As with all the other examples, I hadn't told him or indicated in any way what I was thinking.
So, that's about all i have to say

Anthony Hordern, 34 min

👍🏻

You, 33 min

What do you think?
Amazing stuff, huh?
At one point i think he compared the other people in the ward to frogs. I think I was a refreshing exception for him. 🙂

You, 25 min

One time he said something to me, I don't remember what, that was designed to be hard to understand, I mean because he rattled it off so fast. The gist of it, I think, was something about a hundred Jesuses marching toward their own demise. I kind of had a Jesus vibe to me while I was at the hospital because of the way I wore a handkerchief or scarf or towel or whatever it was on, and I probably had some kind of Jesus complex to go with it. And I said, "what?", or something like that. And he said something like, it figures I wouldn't hear it. It was obvious that he was accusing me of not wanting to hear it because I didn't want to face it/myself. So, i made it clear that i heard it, that I had just wanted to be sure that was what he said. So i said, "it sounded like you said...", and I repeated what he had said. And he explained by saying that there was something in my voice that sounded like, I don't remember exactly, like I wasn't going to make it, or that I didn't believe I was going to make it, or maybe that my savior ambition would fail. I don't remember quite what he said, but I remember that was the impression. It was cool that he could detect that just in the subtleties of my intonation. I don't think even I knew about that dead end embedded in my energy, but it made sense when he said it.

You, 23 min

Another time, I told him I liked this girl in the ward, and sometime later we had a bit of a Who's on First moment as he tried to figure out which girl i was talking about, and he said he had already told this other girl that i liked her. And when he found out it was the wrong girl, he said, "you're a hard teacher," or maybe "you're a tough teacher." So, I guess he takes everyone he meets as a kind of teacher, at least when there's some sort of hardship, regardless of the circumstances. That's rather highly evolved. Or maybe I just have some unconscious teaching agenda about me and he knew that. Though, if I remember right that his was when he did this, as he said it, he sort of shook his head in a silly way that made me think he was actually playing some kind of role.
I'm still not sure he had actually told the other girl I liked her, for some reason I thought he might have been lying.

You, 18 min

So, amazing story, huh?

You, 12 min

Don't you wish you'd met an angel in the flesh? 😀
I met another person once who may not have been an angel, but she was as graceful as one.
I was tempted to ask her if I could kiss her, but of course I didn't. She was rather pretty.
I just thought maybe she would say yes because she was so pure.
It was at a meeting involving Pancho the crystal skull, one of only a few genuine crystal skulls that were found in different parts of the Earth.
She did a ritual at one point where she took somebody's baby and dipped its hand in some water that was in a big bowl or something, and later had us all make bee sounds.
And at one point I saw her standing behind one of the other staff guys, a youngish guy with long hair who was sitting down, and she was stroking his hair.
But here's how I found out how pure she was:
She was wearing a pure white dress,
and I accidentally spilled some water somehow on the floor next to me...
She knelt down and cleaned it up with the bottom of her dress.
I let out a laugh (not *at* her, more like half a giggle),
and she let out a giggle back at me.
I've never met anybody else like that in my life.
(I did feel rather bad that I made her laugh back at me, because my laugh wasn't entirely genuine, it was forced and empty, I just wanted to laugh in response to what she did for some reason that I don't remember.)

You, 4 min

Comment?
About the angel guy, about the rotund guy, about the pancho girl

Anthony Hordern, 3 min

Very good

You, 3 min

Thx
Are you jealous? 😀

Anthony Hordern, 1 min

😮

You, Now
I'm glad i wrote all that down, now i can save it to file.
Wish I'd done it back when I remembered details better.

One thing I want to add to this is something about that pretty girl. At one point, I was staring at her because she was so pretty, and she complained to somebody that I wanted to "swallow" her and said that I needed to go jail. Somebody responded to her that, no, I was just staring because I was interested. So, she was a rather interesting girl, with a rather childish (and, I figured, pure) mind for her age (she must have been, say, 20) and also with some weird metaphysical ideation going on.

And also, I want to mention that there was one thing the angel guy did that I didn't understand. He held an orange (or maybe an apple? idr) out to me behind him as he was sitting at a table and I was behind him, and I don't remember exactly what he said now, but I think he said it's not really an orange (or apple?), it's a [I forget what], and then he asked me if it was funny and/or if I got it. I responded, "It's not funny because I get it" (like it symbolized something that was a bit f*cked) but that was because in my psychotic mind I had inferred some meaning to it that probably wasn't at all what he meant. I don't remember what I thought he meant. Though I guess I *could* have been right about it, considering how in sync we were.

And another thing I've never figured out is why he suggested at one point, rather moralistically, that I'd better start watching the channel 6 news (I mean as a habit, not right at that moment). It was always just about all the local shootings and other lower-vibrational, boring, violent, depressing stuff. I guess there was supposed to be some virtue in becoming aware of what was going on in my town for some reason, but why I don't know, and the news only ever showed all the negative stuff totally disproportionately to what generally went on in life anyway. So, I never did start watching it.

Oh, one more thing about the angel guy. He seemed to love to clean. He'd actually spend a lot of time just cleaning up the furniture and such. At one point he said something like I should just be honest and say whatever I think/feel, and I said, "you clean to much," and he said, "you're scaring me." Oh, and this other time, I was talking to him, and I don't remember what it was about, but he said something like, "all I hear coming out of your mouth is bullshit." I was stopped in my tracks, but I didn't know why he said that, because I didn't think I was being particularly dishonest or anything.

Oh, and by the way, my favorite thing that happened with him was that, I don't remember what the context was, but he suggested I drink water (probably as opposed to something less healthy that I'd usually drink), and I said, "water's boring," and he replied back in an amused, almost laughing, and maybe teasing or slightly mocking way, "water's boring." I felt so seen. :D

Oh, I just remembered one other thing that happened with this angel. At one point, I was in his room, and I think he misunderstood my intentions for being in there. He got into the shower and proceeded to take a shower. I think he was preparing to have sex with me. I left while he was taking a shower (and he never said anything about it later), as one of the staff came by and didn't like that he thought we were planning to have sex. I told the staff member, "no, we're not like that," but I don't think believed me. I think the reason the angel thought that I was gay was that at one point while talking to him I put a hand out and flipped my wrist downward at him. It didn't occur to me at the time how this could have been read. I have no idea why I did this. When psychotic, I'm significantly more likely to do things that I have no understanding of why I do them.